Do my ovaries look fat?

Well so it is now CD 12...
The Femara regime on CD 3-7 went fairly well I would say.

Yesterday DH and I drove the 5hrs to the clinic to get my follie scan, which I guess was okay.  I have 3 follies...then drove 5 hrs back in the freezing rain!  Ugh!  I love my man for coming with me all that way for a quick ultrasound! 

They gave me my Ovidrel shot to take home.  I will "shoot" myself up tonight around 8PM.  The thing is, my left ovary (the one with the goodies) is feeling full already!  Like I feel that I am about to O on my own.  I really am hoping that everything is going to work out, timing wise.
The plan is to BD tonight after the trigger, then again Saturday morning (36 hrs post trigger) and probably again Christmas just to be sure!

I, being the OCD freak I am, have been completely obsessed with trying to find Femara success stories, Ovidrel success stories, first round success stories, and everything in between!  I have been less than productive lately!

I am sure the tww will bring out a whole new set of compulsive behaviours!  Can't wait!

Diary of Cycle 1 on Femara

I will add to this as I go along...

11/12/11 CD1 - AF is here...cramps, etc.
               CD 2 - Super Heavy AF :(
               CD 3 - start Femara...not too bad, feel a little funny
               CD 4 - headache at end of the day, crazy dreams
               CD 5 - first acupuncture session!  hot flashes in the evening, a few waves of nausea after supper
               CD 6 - some more hot flashes
               CD7 - headache
               CD 8 - no Femara   - felt fine, OPK negative
               CD 9 - slight pains in L ovary...upped Metformin to 1000 mg, slightly nauseous, headache bad before bedtime!
               CD 10 - constipated!
               CD11 - scan day! one follie at 16mm, one at 15mm and one at 13mm
               CD12 - heavy left ovary!  Trigger tonight at 7 PM!!!! BD tonight
               CD 13 - nauseous early morn; acupuncture at 8 am!
               CD 14 - BD in the AM, ovulation pains at night! 
               CD 15 - Merry Christmas!!! start progesterone
               CD 16 - nothing to report
               CD 17 - tiniest of tiny bits of clotting on tp at night
               CD 18 - nothing to report really; progesterone not really causing me any grief!
               CD 19 - feeling bloated and kind of crampy
               CD 20 - slight backache
               CD 21 - sick with a head cold, extreme headache tonight!  Along with bad backache! 
               CD 22 - 8dpo, BFN
               CD 23 - hmm, feeling nothing really
               CD 24, 25, 26 - sick with a bad chest cold...nothing else but BFN's every day
               CD 27 BFN
               CD 28 BFN
               CD 29 AF arrived

Femara and no IUI

So because our file was missing some bloodwork for my DH, we could not go ahead with IUI this month.  I talked them into letting me take the Femara, have the ultrasound and trigger and then just do the deed at home the "old-fashioned" way!  I am now on Day 2 of Femara, and aside from being really tired with a slight headache, I feel okay.  I have an ultrasound booked for December 21st to see how my follies are doing.  I go for acupuncture tomorrow and am really looking forward to it! 

I admit that Christmas has sort of been an afterthought for me this year as all I have on my mind is ttc!  It sure is all-encompassing!

Hope with IUI; a new journey

Lots to say...

We finally sat down with the FS and got all the results from the vast amount of tests we had done.  Here is the lowdown:
AMH - 0.16 - VERY LOW ovarian reserve
FSH - 12.18
Spermogram - excellent
Antral Follicle Count - 8/3 - okay, not great
Karotyoe - Normal
Hemoglobin A1c - .057 - slightly elevated

So what does that mean?  Well, i have to have another blood sugar test done to see about possible Type 2 diabetes...I have very few eggs left...and I need some help.
So what are we going to do?

We are about to embark on our first IUI ( he recommends 3 - I will do 2 before insisting we move on)
What he prescribed:
Metformin (for the high glucose levels)
DHEA 75 mg
CoQ10 - 600 mg
Folic Acid 5mg
Femara CD 3-7, Ovidrel trigger shot, Progesterone from night of IUI on
If BFP, Progesterone for 12 weeks

I had a great chat with my Naturopath this morning and will be starting acupuncture on the 15th.  She made me feel pretty good about what my FS had prescribed, and about what she feels my chances are.

So now I am just waiting for AF to get here so we can start this new journey.  I am feeling positive :)

A new avenue

I have decided to start seeing a Naturopath.  I called up yesterday and signed the release waiver to have my RE send over all my test results.  Once she receives them, she will call me with an appointment.

I am still waiting to have a hysteroscopy done before my RE will sit down with us to discuss what is going on.  I have now been waiting for four months!  Very frustrating.  So I figure I will do all I can naturally in the meantime, and maybe with any luck I won't need Fertility Treatments!!!!

Positive Thoughts!

Hurtful Words

So this morning started off good and quickly nosedived with thoughtless though innocent comments from one of the ladies at my son's daycare.

We walked in and I guess two sisters were fighting and being disciplined.  The lady says "Look Aidan (my son) doesn't fight with his brother because he doesn't have a brother!"  She turns to me..."When are you going to have more children?  Don't you want more kids?" 

Cue me, in the car crying all the way to work.  I am so tired of telling people that we're working on it.  Working on it?  Hell it is the thing I want MOST in this whole world, and I am not succeeeding yet!  I felt like saying to her, you know, I was pregnant just 3 weeks ago, and now I'm not so mind your own friggin business lady!
Somehow that probably wouldn't have gone over well.
Anyway for now I am waiting for AF to arrive so I can call to try to book the Hysteroscopy test that I need to have done before our FS will meet with us.

I am getting pretty tired of waiting though...

Hard to swallow

I thought I would list the vitamins/supplements that I now take daily...until my RE tells me I should do otherwise:
Vitamin D 1000 IU/25 mcg
Folic Acid 0.4mg
CoQ10 250 mg
ASA low dose 81 mg
Vitamin B12(125mcg) B6(50 mg) with Folic Acid(0.4 mg)

I have added Walnuts and Pom juice to my diet, and have just switched to decaf...

You need to take HOW MUCH blood?

Well I had my rpl panel bloodbork done this morning.  Twenry, yes TWENTY vials of blood taken!  The nurse at the clinic actually asked the lab at the hospital if she could take that much blood at one sitting!  Cue me going "OMG!!" Well she did a good job, got a good vein right away and it went fairly well.  I was very tired afterwards though.  I went home and slept for three hours! 
So now it's a waiting game.  I have no idea how long it takes for the bloodwork results to be sent to my RE, but he still won't book my follow up appointment until I have my HSG done.  I really hope I get in to have that test in November.  It has to be done in Montreal - 5 hrs away from where I live.

I am back in limbo...unsure of my next cycle given the fact that I just had a m/c, so I suppose I can try to put ttc out of my mind for a few weeks.  Easier said than done...

Where it all started

So I suppose that my TTC journey started way back in 1995 when I had my first miscarriage at about 8 weeks.  I was young, but devastated.  It happened on Mother's Day and I will never forget the deep sadness that it brought.
Fast Forward...three years later I met the love of my life, whom I married in 2007.  We started ttc a couple of months before our wedding and I just assumed it would be easy. It wasn't.  It took us over a year to get our first BFP in June of 08.  A few weeks later I started bleeding, and we rushed to the hospital.  It was too early for an ultrasound so we had to wait.  I started bleeding again...we had a fetal heart beat though.  We were given 50/50 odds.  I was off work my entire pregnancy and we had a beautiful son in Feb of 09.
Given the length of time it took us to conceive our DS, we started trying again fairly early and in Dec of 09 I got my BFP!  Again I started to bleed in January so we went to the hospital.  This time we saw the fetal heartbeat at 7w5d.  At 11 weeks I started to bleed again and we went in for another ultrasound - no heartbeat.  I was crushed!  They said I was on the edge of having to have a D & C, so they sent me home and I went through labour and had an absolutely horrific miscarriage at home.  My MIL was with me (former RN) and my DH was looking after our son.  Tragic.
I had an ultrasound and bloodwork done afterwards and my OB said everything looked okay.
We got another BFP in June of 10.  Bleeding started right afterwards and I had an early loss.
We then didn't get PG again for 16 months. 
In July of 11 my OB referred us to a fertility clinic.  I had an initial visit, went back for ovarian reserve testing and have been waiting to get an appointment for an HSG.
In the meantime, we got a BFP a few weeks ago.  I started to bleed.  Visit to ER...beta 3.2.  Heartbreak again.
Now I am heading tomorrow for complete RPL Panel bloodwork, hoping to get an appointment for HSG in November and have follow up with RE in December to find out WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!!!!!