7w5d

I had my scan on Monday - bay was a beautiful thing to see!  Little bean measured at 7w2d on the ultrasound, but the doc said we would go by my iui date and that i was at 7w3d, due date of October 11, 2012.  The heartbeat was flickering away!  I asked about the bpm but she said she didn't like to use the doppler this early in a pregnancy.  Okay, whatever - so long as I know the heart is beating!

I cried tears of joy!  My Mom was with me since DH couldn't be, so that was nice to have her there.  This is starting to feel real.  I don't know why but until now I kind of was waiting for the bottom to fall out from beneath me.  Now I feel my self leaning towards hope, hope and faith that this is meant to be and that we will have a beautiful child at the end of this journey.

And what a journey it's been.  Since conceiving our DS in 2008 - the scare that we went through with that pregnancy, being given a 50/50 chance of carrying him after I started bleeding early on.  He was never dull - right down to the emergency c-section due to breach!  What a wonderful magical time!
Then all the heartbreak after that, in Feb of 2010 - finding out at 12 weeks that we lost a baby at 8 weeks, losing two more since then early on (5 weeks and 4 weeks).  I really will be so happy to reach the 13/14 week point in this pregnancy!

So far things seem good!  I am very nauseous, which I take as a good sign every day that things are going well.  My boobs haven't really grown too much and don't hurt that much, but there's plenty of time for that.  The progesterone still has me so bloated it's crazy!  I swear I look 5 months preggers!  Not even close to being a baby bump tho!  Oh well.  If the progesterone is keeping bean sticky, then that's what I will continue to take!  I did score on a prenatal prescription that divides the pills to two a day, and they are much smaller than the regular prenatals (excellent when you have uber-sensitive gag reflex like I do!)  They contain 5mg of folic which is great, and my insurance covers them 100%!  Bonus!

So for now I will breathe a sigh of relief and try to get through the next 5 weeks event free!

6w2d

Well I am into my 6th week - and still holding my breath!  I did get the beta results back from 5w3d at 1552.  So from what I could tell, that was within normal range.  I had my first OBS appointment on Friday.  They did all the paperwork, yadadada.  I am still disheartened to see them write down that I am on my 7th pregnancy, and i have 1 child.  Sigh.

My ultrasound isn't for another six days.  I really can't wait.  I am just about out of my mind with anticipation.  I am faithfully taking all my vitamins and supplements, and the progesterone (uggh!) I still have morning sickness, and I even POAS last night just to reassure myself.  My last Internet cheapie - yes it was positive!  Very positive!

And so I continue with my prayers...cautiously optimistic.

5w3d - A little bit preggers

So today I am 5 weeks and 3 days pregnant.  I was shocked to hear that my fertility clinic did not want to order a beta test, so I had my ND order one last week.  I went and had blood drawn Friday morning, and here we are Monday afternoon and I still don't have the results!  I am about to lose my mind!  I just want to have a number! 
I go for an appointment on Friday with my OBGYN Clinic, and they will order bloodwork and an ulttrasound - but between now and then, I paid out of pocket to have some reassurance - AND I WANT IT!

PREGNANT!!!

So I definitely tested positive on a hpt this morning at 3 AM!  I am over the moon happy!  At a conference and have to get going, but a longer post to come!